today's sunday still have to work.. sianz... now alone at work place.. sian.. how i wish can faster work!! anyway MCYS called mummy yesterday ler.. so now left go collect the letter jiu ke yi register ler!! haha so happy.. lolx!!

ok.. had been donkey years since i last posted and updated my blog.. anyway finally had our marriage lots of birthdays had passed.. ah siao,joseph's and also lao po's friends birthday.. anyway this few days still as usual been bz working like hell.. zzz and dear had really become much more guai ler.. will listen to me more and lesser attitude liao ler.. haha.. think stop here liao.. too much to say but dunno wanna start from where also.. will try to upload photos if not lazy.. =P

p.s DEAR i Love u!!! *roars*

how i wished i dun have to blog..

everytime i blog means that something sad or fustrating is going on wif my life.. yes.. i hardly blog good stuffs in my blog.. the reasons is that sad or fustrating stuffs are harder to be spoken out loud.. so instead of speaking it to anyone.. this is the best place for me i suppose...

dunno why everytime when u aren't with me , we will have to quarrel... no matter whether is it over small issues or even stupid issues.. yesterday had a long day at work and even made the effort to go find u to have lunch together.. but juz because of me asking if can i go drinking wif my collegues u started giving me attitude the entire day... even till night time.. come on.. i'm onli drinking wif my guy collegues and nothing more... u? go meet ur friends(i'm fine wif it) but wif guys that u totally do not know?? and some guy that is so forever fucking desperate to meet u one.. how will i feel?? reached home yesterday night tried talking abit to u ended up things got worst.. woke up today and was working the entire day and things had gotten better but because of me leaving a comment to a girl u pressume that i'm flirting?? did u even read the comment tat i left?? does saying don't think so much and keep yourself occupied and cheer up counts as flirting?? you said today's mooncake festival and wanted to celebrate it so i was thinking of meeting u and everything ended up because of this type of small comments issues u say u not meeting me.. wat more u expect from me?? u can have guy friends and they can msg u and call u n EVEN MSN U SAYING WILL WAIT FOR U THOSE BULL SHIT but i can't even leave a small comment? is this even fair? i'm not saying i wans to contact girls or watever shit but if even u urself can't limit den u expect others to do it yet u can't? it's a funny joke.. the last time before we decide to be back together u were agreeing wif everything and all sorts of promises.. but after 1-2 months ? everything gets back to square one.. u may not notice but u are no different wif who u are in the past.. u have juz changed back to the same old u.. wat happen to all the promises and agreement??? if u can't even keep ur own promises or do wat promised den dun expect more from others..

today went to toa payoh for the couselling for me and dear's marriage... was si bei tiring for me and dear... finish at 6.. after tat went down to yvonne creative to see our photos again.. and have chose our photo album's cover all those.. after that we rushed to sakae at ps to eat.. dear and me eat alot sia.. 2 pple eat till 70 dollars like tat.. lolx!! after tat we bought tickets for the show gamer.. before the show dear pei me go parklane to play black shot.. lolx.. thanks dear.. love u lots..!! =D den now juz reach home den going to play b.s ler.. thanks dear for today! =D

very long nv post liao ler.. anyway had been bz working.. and juz recovered wif a sore throat.. anyway me and dear ok ler.. she promised me to guai guai.. so must guai guai hor!! anyway we went to choose our wedding photos.. all so nice.. but can onli keep abt 60 of them.. total 400+ omg... den mummy say keep 95.. den me and dear manage to psycho mummy to get the 120 pics one.. den we get to keep the master copy.. wooo.. thanks alot mummy.. love u lots.. dear.. see mummy dote on us so much.. must treasure her ok... anyway stop here ler.. mucks~

very long nv post liao ler.. anyway had been bz working.. and juz recovered wif a sore throat.. anyway me and dear ok ler.. she promised me to guai guai.. so must guai guai hor!! anyway we went to choose our wedding photos.. all so nice.. but can onli keep abt 60 of them.. total 400+ omg... den mummy say keep 95.. den me and dear manage to psycho mummy to get the 120 pics one.. den we get to keep the master copy.. wooo.. thanks alot mummy.. love u lots.. dear.. see mummy dote on us so much.. must treasure her ok... anyway stop here ler.. mucks~

i know it's very evil.. but after hearing wat ur mum say it's way over my limit.. i dun see a need to talk abt it or think anymore.. fuck it.. sry baby.. daddy had to let u go not because i dun love ur mummy or u.. but it's because of those awful words ur grandma said tat cause me to let u go...

after thinking i told u give me today to think carefully but instead.. i saw ur msn playing minesweeper wif ur precious ex bf.. if tat's the case wat more u wan me to say.. i'm speechless.. forget it.. i dunno wat's true in this world anymore...

talked to her on the phone... i know my decision is sudden and fucked up.. but i really cannot take the pressure from my mum anymore.. and between us there are juz to many "if's" and "but's" i'm really stressed out... i dunno when u might burst again and everything.. i dun wan one day u burst and flare and juz leave me and our child.. i dun wish to have this kind of things happening to me.. wat i wan is a happy and loving family.. a wife tat will support watever i do and believe and trust me 100%, tis is something tat u always had problems wif... i need a wife tat does things tat i dun have to worry for and will tink maturly and is able to at least help me take care abit of the house. i dun expect u to do all the household chores.. but do watever tat's within ur own limits.. not those tat knowing it's the lunar month but still runs out in the middle of the night when u are pregnant.. ya i know it's nearby but so? i'm not being unreasonable.. i'm being frank.. who's not protective?? i really had enuff wif the guys can contact u girls cannot contact me sort of things already.. i have my own will and friends too... instead of beliving tat i will love u whole heartedly u restricted my freedom.. i have to earn a living.. it's naturally that i will get to know pple of the opposite sex and talk to them or mention them.. sorry that i cannot live up to ur expectations forever.. so instead of signing the divorce papers.. i would rather not sign the marriage paper in the begining.. we had drag enuff pples into our problems already so i would rather not trouble anyone anymore.. sigh

working at parkmall

working at parkmall today.. i lost my voice.. sigh.. lost my voice since yesterday night.. zzz today gotten a little better but still damn no voice.. grrr.. *angry*

went to sebai yesterday wif almost the whole gang.. but left quite early as liquor had finish.. she msged me telling me she going her friend's place nearby onli.. it's in the night and u are walking along to ur friend's place.. wat the hell.. i told u b4 it's the lunar 7th month but yet u still like this.. reach already also nv tell me.. who's place also never tell me... reached home for mj session wif ah an, candice and her sister.. and i do mean her REAL BLOOD sister.. zzz..
finished mj at abt 5 and i tink she's still at her bloody friend's place.. dunno wat's so nice to stay at her friend's place instead of staying at home... read her blog.. even more pissed.. argh.. pissed

photo shoot

ok... had been very long since i blogged... anyway yesterday's me and darling's 9th month annivsary!! happy 9th month baby!! thanks for the suprise~~ love u lots... had been crazily working and gaming for the past 2 months.. lolx... and today went for our out-door shoot.. really very tiring day today.. had lots of fun for me.. but as for dear i dunno ler.. lolx.. dear so poor thing.. got a little sunburn due to the sun.. but really lucky today as past 2 times we wanted to have our outdoor shoot but was cancelled due to the rain.. but today lucky.. no rain!! den i juz removed my make up.. -_-" den now waiting for dear to finish remove make up b4 going to go pom pom~~ =P ok.. stop here ler.. tml still gotta work...

i love you; boy♥

Is me. Linda. Jayson's gf; wife soon. I'm helping him to update his blog while he is sleeping quietly like a baby. Okays, time now is 3:00am' 1st of sep. Is my anniversary with him. Cheer! I don't know what i should do, so giving him a litter surprise by this. (People see this, please give him a message asap telling him Linda had given him a litter surprise, thank you.) Hope he will like it. Phew, thought he going to wake up. alright, i better get the topic started before he...

Okay, now. SURPRISE! Dear. Happy 9th Anniversary. Well, most importantly. I LOVE YOU DEAR. Gosh, how am i going to leave without you. Only you can make me smile. Uh uh, no one else. You only. I love you truly, i love you madly, i love you deeply. I always said, action speaks louder than words. I hope you already can see my action has been changing already. Just for you my boy. We will have our 10th Anni then follow on to year by year and to FOREVER. Till death do us part. I will never forget de. I never regret knowing you, however thanks to god. I never regret being with you nor having your baby. I had never regret all the thing i've done with you. Even quarrel, it build us stronger. Am i right, my precious? I bet i know what you will say. "Of cause, silly girl." Ha-has. Dear, whenever you are around, i feel so warm, comfortable and safe. Tried without you for 1 week, remember? Makes me so lost. So, boy. You belong's to me. I never want that feeling ever again. DON'T WANT! DON'T WANT! Alright, think i will stop. Kind of tired already. Yawn. Of cause, I'll never forgot, Jayson ho, i love you. MUACKS!

Written By, Jayson's Gf;wife. -/♥ 011208

alot of things happened this 2 days.. lots of quarrel and fights.. but i believe tat as long as we believe each other and everything no problems will stand between us.. i love you baby~ =)

zzz.. currently at work place working... so tired. quarrelled wif dear over issues like i couldn't wake up today morning to send her to the hospital for the scan.. but even if i didn't wake up and go, can't u go without me? or can't u wait for me to go tml? you can slp as much as u wan. but i can't.. when the time for me to wake up to go prepare to go work i have to drag myself out of bed no matter how tired i am... and because of such small issues u have to say things like u are starting to hate me... yes i know i've done things tat let u down in the past. if u can't forgive and forget den say it... watever i do u are juz nv pleased wif it.. i had nv treated or give in to someone as much as this b4 and you are the one tat's always flaring ur temper nowadays and wat? expecting me to coax u or give in all the time?? i'm a human also.. i also have my temper.. we're already getting married and i did hold to my promises but wat abt u? u promised to control ur temper but did u? u are flaring and giving me attitude over small issues.. if u dread getting married so much juz say it now.. dun end up hurting both of us even deeper.. i know i can't lose u. but if there's ever a day u will end up leaving me den i would rather u leave now n end up breaking up this family. really damn pissed off now.. argh!